So it is now 2 weeks after quitting smoking. It has been another roller coaster of a ride.
The experience so far has been better than expected in a lot of ways and in other ways worse then I expected. I’ll take you through day by day what has been happening since my last update at 5 days after quitting.
6 Days After Quitting Smoking
Ok I am going to admit something, it was a close call here. I very nearly smoked. I texted my husband in the morning to say I was struggling and he never responded. This of course made me angry and resentful, it made me think hey I have a great excuse to smoke now! My hubby doesn’t care that I am struggling.
I texted him again a while later to tell him I can’t do this. I am going to smoke. I was nearly heading out the door to go buy some smokes when he calls me and tells me he is proud of me and that I have done so well. He reminds me why we are quitting smoking: our children.
Damn he’s good. I can’t smoke now. So I am angry and resentful again.
7 Days After Quitting Smoking
I realize where I went wrong on day 6. I started wondering if I should or shouldn’t smoke. It is when I am unsure of myself and start to think I should smoke that the addict gremlin gets in my head. It is like a hamster on a wheel and it just goes round and round and round. I can’t get off.
Today I am tired of this hamster wheel. I don’t know how much longer I can last with it. I decide I don’t want to smoke.
8 Days After Quitting Smoking
I am starting to notice the benefits of not smoking. I am finding it easy to wake up, I am awake before my alarm goes off and not the “oh shit I’m awake, its morning” kind of wake up I usually have. It is a happy, fresh and awake sort of wake up. I feel ready for the day.
My morning cough is gone.
Let’s not get too excited though, I am still miserable as can be. I still want to smoke and this hamster wheel is still going! When will it stop?
It is worse during the week. On the weekends my kids are keeping me busy and my hubby is home. During the week days I am all alone… well me and my hamster.
9 Days After Quitting Smoking
I weighed myself this morning and guess what! In just over a week I have gained 6kgs. Yes I have been nibbling on things, all the time non-stop. I feel like I am going to vomit chocolate eclairs (you know those yummy little toffee sweets?).
I’m still safe thanks to losing lots of weight recently (explained in my previous post) so I still have 2 kgs until I am in danger of going over my normal weight. But still I can sort of feel my thighs rubbing together although that might be my imagination? Yeah I might be going crazy. The fact is I still can’t think straight.
My thoughts go something like this:
So let’s have a cup of coffee (YAY and a smoke! I love coffee while smoking). No, no I don’t want to smoke. (Oh I am so sad I could cry!). Ok let’s get some work done. (YAY and then have a smoke!). NO, then get some more work done. (YAY and then have a smoke?). No, no smoking at all. (Fuck this, I’m an adult. If I want to smoke I can smoke. Everyone smokes. And if they don’t they sure as hell want to). No I don’t want to smoke. (Yes, oh yes you do!!). I can’t concentrate on my work, let’s have some breakfast instead. (YAY, nothing like a smoke after some chow!). NO, NO, NO stop it, get out of my head. Ok I need to make some phone calls. (YAY I love smoking while talking on the phone!).
And so it goes on… yes all day. This really is insane. Is this how smoking really rules everything I do all day and night? Please can someone shoot this hamster?
10 Days After Quitting Smoking
Last night I dreamed that I had a smoke. Yes a “using” dream. It’s quite funny because I have never dreamed about smoking before. I remember after quitting drugs and alcohol I had using dreams for quite a long time.
The day went fast and easily, my kids and hubby kept me busy. I told my husband how much easier I find it on the weekends and nights when everyone is home with me. He looked at me and rolled his eyes and said he struggles in the evenings and weekends but when he is busy at work he finds it much easier.
I feel bad for him struggling today, then I remember that I have 5 hard days all alone to get through to his 2 days on the weekend. Then I get irritated because I feel he has it easier than me and its not fair. Oooh this anger is hard to predict!
11 Days After Quitting Smoking
My morning smokers cough (umm ok my all day smokers cough) has gone. I was constantly coughing. It was so bad my neighbor was always asking me if I am ok.
Today something amazing happened. I hardly thought about smoking at all. In fact we went to my husband’s father for a braai and at about 11am my hubby told me how much he is struggling. Until that time I had not once thought about smoking or had a craving. Oh my gosh, what an achievement. This is a huge break through and I am so grateful.
This was my best day yet, I sailed through it and even though I had a few slight cravings later in the day I managed just fine.
12 Days After Quitting Smoking
So what goes up must come down right? It’s Monday and I am all alone and the hamster wants to get on the wheel again and make up for lost time. I can feel it starting to fight with me.
I am happy and at peace though. I told my hamster to do its damnest. I am not interested, today might be bad but I will have more days like yesterday, I will ride it out. This is implementing step 3 and it worked! Seems my hamster lost some steam after that.
Until this moment I have been convinced that at some stage I will give in and smoke. It is almost like I am just trying to see how long I can hold out for before I give in.
Today I feel like I can be a non-smoker. Another milestone has been achieved!
13 Days After Quitting Smoking
Yes I had cravings today, but they are mild and just irritating. They are not the all consuming cravings of the first week. When the hamster arrives I just tell it to bugger off and it is gone.
14 Days After Quitting Smoking
Geez I can’t believe it, I have made 2 weeks without smoking and I am not dying. I don’t even know what to share with you today.
There is just nothing going on here except the odd craving and I just carry on with my day. Yes it still feels like there is something missing, certain brief moments like when I get up in the morning and have my coffee, straight after putting the kids to bed and of course after sex!
So what are the results of quitting smoking after 2 weeks?
- Sleeping better
- Waking up fresh and ready for the day
- Smokers cough has completely disappeared
- Anger, anxiety and restlessness has improved
- Cravings and obsessions are more manageable
I hope to share some more awesome results with you all soon.
I can see something very clearly now, there is only one way to stop cigarette cravings and that is to stop smoking!
While I was smoking I was always craving a cigarette. Smoking ruled my life. Everything I did was compartmentalized into cigarette breaks.
If I was working I would tell myself I will do the filing and then have a smoke. Perhaps busy in the kitchen? I will do the dishes, have a smoke and then start making supper. Absolutely everything was ruled by smoking!
Now that I have stopped smoking I am not craving as much as when I did smoke.
A few weeks before I quit smoking my 3 year daughter asked me to come draw with her. I replied “Yes, I will come in a few minutes” and so she asked me “Oh, are you going to have a cigarette before you come draw with me?”. Wow, did she hit the nail on the head!
It was at this moment I could clearly see how I put smoking above everything else in my life. It was also at this moment I could clearly see how my daughter already understood that my smoking was more important than her, more important than little moments drawing together.
It was also this moment that I made the decision to quit smoking and set the date to quit.
So I thank my 3 year old daughter for showing me the way and for giving me the strength and courage I needed to quit smoking. I hope to continue to be a non-smoker so that I can be a better mother to my children.
I hope to continue with this success story, to inspire other smokers to quit and to let you know exactly what the journey is like.
When do Cigarette Cravings Stop?
I have heard that Nicotine is completely clear from your body at 3 weeks and at this time physical cravings stop. However the mental obsession will still very much be there for a long time to come. If this is the case I only have to make another 7 days until my body is completely Nictone free!
Are you a smoker? Have you managed to quit smoking? Please leave a comment if you need any help or want to share you experience!